Even though I should read Dr. Sears Baby Book, I read Wine for Dummies.
Even though I know I should wake up at 6:30 to go to yoga class, I sleep until 8 and run around with my kids, twirling around, skipping, and lifting them up over my head. Just as good of a workout for body and for soul.
Even though I think I should save every penny for camera equipment, I buy shoes.
Even though I know I should be grateful for what I have and hold onto to old pieces of furniture, I sell the old stuff to make room for some new stuff.
And even though I know my moisturizer, foot and hand cream, shampoo and conditioner, and my makeup too contain all sorts of weird chemicals, I use them. I want nice skin, smooth hands and feet, a clean mane (roar), and lipstick. I just do.
Even though I think I ought to encourage my daughter to play with her wooden, natural, educational toys, I laugh when she and her brother play with their colorful, plastic McDonalds’ set.
Even though I know gasoline and oil are wrecking the Gulf, ruining natural life and wrecking the lives of people who depend on a clean ocean, I fill my tank up and drive. I say to myself, “I want to help but I need to drive. I live in this world.” So I think about making a donation or collecting Toby’s hair to ship to the cleanup crews. Pet hair apparently absorbs oil.
And even though I sat down to check e-mail and only e-mail, I wrote this post.
What do you do when you know or think that you ought to be doing something else?
What I know is, sometimes it feels good to break my little rules, the shoulds, the oughts. It’s somehow liberating.
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I spend a lot of time online that I should spend doing other things. Cleaning, engaging with my kids, working, weeding the garden. The computer is definitely my time suck and the nemesis of my shoulds.
Love, love, love this post! I’ve been practicing letting go of the guilt that comes with this Mommy gig. Thanks for making me smile!
What do I do? I sit admist a house that looks like the site of nucular war testing with my feet up reading your blog! HA!
(oh, and I am so with you on the skin/make-up thing!)
I definitely spend more time online than I should. Also, even though I know I should drink more water and eat more veggies, I can’t help but indulge in a nice cup of coffee and a bit of chocolate.
My favorite is the second on your list – it’s so true, and such a great reminder : ) It’s definitely freeing to let go of images of our own ideal selves and happily embrace who we are today.
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